As I’ve mentioned recently, I struggle with insecurity and trying to measure my worth by my abilities, characteristics, and performance.
When I was in elementary school, I was a dork, and some kids made fun of my hair. Ever since then, I’ve struggled with insecurity about how my hair looks. “Will people think my hair is cool, or will they think I’m a dork?”
Well, just over a week ago, my friend and fellow staffer, Michael Wallace, preached the weekend message at Faith Promise Church, and at the beginning, he included a comment about my hair. Saying it was as compliment might be a stretch, but it still made my day. In fact, I cropped out the video so I can watch it whenever I want to.
It’s embarrassing to write this post, but I’m doing it for a couple of reasons:
1) To thank Michael Wallace. :)
2) To make the point that our insecurities create a black hole within us that can never really be satisfied with compliments. Heck, someone even mentioned my hair from a stage in front of hundreds of people, but that didn’t cure my insecurity. Instead, we have to learn to think more about others and less about ourselves. We can let our insecurities fill us with fear and keep us from connecting with others, or we can choose to ignore our discomfort and think about how we can make a difference in the lives of the people around us.
I don’t know about you, but I’ve wasted enough time worrying about myself.